Hoping for rain today, we supposedly have abundant Gulf Coast moisture blowing in. We really need rain. We are so dry, it has affected our spraying business. Since we rely on farmers crops, and there were few last year, we didn’t have much work. Farmers can buy insurance to help them out, we don’t have that option. All Ag supporting businesses are hurting, grain elevators, cotton gins and spray businesses. We are at a very critical point. This past 7 months has been so difficult for me, at times I was angry with God because he would not let it rain. I had a turmoil inside trying to remain faithful that it would rain in God’s timing, all the time knowing our business was hurting. I look back on the year before, 2010, we had great rains all throughout the year flourishing crops, we were busy spraying all season long. We and the farmers were in “high cotton” literally.
I’ve learned from this, when things are going good, hang on tight, because things quite possibly could change in an instant. Instead of saving for a rainy day, save your money because the drought will come. There have been so many factors beyond our control, too bad I haven’t figured out how to control the weather. I have to remind myself daily, hourly and sometimes moment by moment that I do not manage the entire Universe. You know, let go and let God. Okay so please Lord let it RAIN!
This past Fall I visited with my Mama about my anger with God and my despair over our business situation. She found a scripture that really did help pull me out of my funk.
17 Even though the fig trees have no blossoms,
and there are no grapes on the vines;
even though the olive crop fails,
and the fields lie empty and barren;
even though the flocks die in the fields,
and the cattle barns are empty,
18 yet I will rejoice in the LORD!
I will be joyful in the God of my salvation!
19 The Sovereign LORD is my strength!
He makes me as surefooted as a deer,[a]
able to tread upon the heights.
I began going to Wednesday night bible study at church, I just felt better about life, fellowship with my church family helped me feel like everything is going to be okay. And I know it will, it just may be different. We will be fine, as long as I have my Husband and my girls, and my family, I will be fine. Sometimes we don’t realize we are on a mountaintop until we reach a valley, valleys are inevitable, unpredictable and impartial but they have a purpose. We grow when we are in the valley, we will grow closer to God.
2 Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. 3 For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. 4 So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.